And it feels like....

Hello hello!

Well I didn't go to the game last night. Instead, I went grocery shopping with my older cousin. I picked up my special K cereal and snacks and other healthy things for my dorm room. The special K diet is supposed to be good. Two bowls a day; one for breakfast and one for lunch. Then whatever I want for dinner. And in two weeks, I should be 6 lbs lighter. So we shall see.

Now, on to whats been on my mind.

Last night, while in the car with my cousin, Alicia Key's song, "You Don't Know My Name", came on the radio. I've heard the song about 1,000,001 times before, but for some reason, last night I felt differently while listening to it.

The song is about a girl falling for a guy that doesn't notice her. She sings about how she pictures their first date and first kiss and a romantic relationship. It kinda seems like stalker behavior but I can relate.

I always find my self as standing on the sidelines. Guys don't usually notice me and when they do, I give off the "home girl" vibe. I become a friend and thats how things stay.

Being a friend isn't so bad but there have been guys that I befriended when originally I was interested in them but they just did not see me that way. I'm just very awkward when it comes to flirting. I just don't know how to. Partly because I don't want to give off the wrong idea and partly because I don't want to look or feel stupid. I've also been told that I sometimes have a mean look on my face that can scare people off.

My friend, BJ, told me about this method he uses to get a girl interested or at least make them a little more curious. He told me to look at a guy and smile then look away and wait a few seconds then look again and smile again. Its supposed to work for him everytime but I never tried because I don't want to look like a total dweeb.

But I think this year I should come out of my shell a bit. Jean says I act like I'm 14. Although 14 year olds do a lot more than I do sometimes. But I see what he's trying to say.

So there is this guy in my history class that I think is pretty cute. Maybe I'll try "the look" on him or just simply say hi.

~Noelle