Refreshed and Enlightened!!

PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST HAD THE MOST MENTALLY STIMULATING CONVERSATION I HAVE HAD IN A LOOOOOONG TIME!!!

So I know I just wrote a blog a few hours ago but I have been inspired to write another. And its all thanks to Stephie and her charming boyfriend, Ghaaziy.

Remember how earlier today, I said that it was feeling good? Well a few hours later I was back on a low. So, I reached out to Stephie and she told me that she had spoken to her boyfriend about me and he had some words of wosdom to share with me. She tried to relay his message herself, however, it was in vain. I love her for trying though. But anywho, she ended up just calling him and and we had about an hour conversation.

I just want to say that this young man is everything Stephie has told me and then some! He is articulate and intellegent. It was very refreshing to have such a great conversation. Lately, all my conversations consist of sex and who is fighting who and other things that seem trivial. This conversation however was positive and made me think about a lot of things.

Ghaaziy had been told that I am a hopeless romantice because, well I categorized myself as one. I sa it all the time and I pretty much embody it. But he broke it down for me where I shouldn't call myself hopeless. He brought up things such as settling and self esteem and confidence. Things that I have always had issues with. I knew I had to deal with them but up until tonight, I never actually thought about taking action. Now I just want to call or message every guy I have ever been with and tell them all why I appreciate them and why I hate them for making me feel like I do.

I feel sooooo positive right now. He hit the nail right on the head with so many different things. Right down to not wanting to wake up in the morning and go to class knowing that you have to and having a bad hair day! I'm just impressed beyond expression, honestly.

When Stephie first told me about him, I dubbed him the nickname of Mr. Bently and would joke with her about him sipping tea and nibbling on tiny cucumber sandwiches with teh crust cut off. But he proved tonight that he is more than just that. He gives off the "real nigga" vibe as well.

Thats another thing. he made me re-evaluate the word nigga and how it is used. i used to say that it is a negative word and shouldn't be said all the time but now I almost want to say it a lot more. I won't but thats just an example of how thought provoking his arguments were.

I imagine my husband and son to be somehow like that one day. Not enough young adults are. Stephie once told me about a time where he stopped and looked at a painting and appreciated it and said "I'm going to own something like this one day." All I could say was, "wow." its a beautiful thing when you meet someone new and they are on another page than the people that you usually know. Not to say that my friend sare stupid. I have very intellectual friends that all have different opinions and points of view. However, this conversation definatly ended with me being on a more positive note. It was just what I needed.

Stephie, I already told you a million times that if you break his heart, I will break your face. And vice versa. I love you beyond expression and you definatly took a major part in making me feel better tonight as well. Hold on to this one. He is a blessing that is well deserved because you in turn are a blessing to me and everyone you know. I love you, bitch! =) and thank you Ghaaziy aka Mr. Bently for a really wonderful converstaion. I think I may even quote you in my away message hahaha.

Anywhoo , loves. Its getting late and I want to go to bed before something ruins my positive parade. Good night and God bless!

~Noelle