Its only 12:oo PM and already I want this day to be over!!!!! Right now I wish I owned a glock. Thats a really big and powerful hand gun for those that don't know. Not to actually shoot anyone but to just smack the shit out of just about everyone! Its the first day of spring, my spring break is finally here, I'm going home to see my family and friends and have more fun. Therefore I shoul dnot be this upset when I was only awake for about 5 hrs.! But I am. And it allll started with last night.
I WILL REPEAT THIS FOR THE 10000000th TIME: MAN UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just do it! This goes for both men and women. Just grow the fuck up!
I was on facebook and I commented on a picture that a group of us had taken. I said it was a cute picture only one person wasn't paying attention and another was blocking the face of someone else. Thats all the comment said. But of coarse, LITTLE BOYS have to try and be funny so one comments "Lets talk about what you were blocking" and two others proceed to instigate and hype the situation.
Long story short, it turned into going back and forth and me finding out that one was angry because i took condoms out of his room in DECEMBERR and the othere was mad because I was in the same room as he and my firend who he likes and soo they fele like I was cock blocking.
FIRST OF ALL!!!!!! I WANTED SOOOO BADLY TO JUST FLAT OUT INSULT THE BOTH OF THEM AND BELITTLE THEIR MANHOOD SO MUCH RIGHT THERE ON THE INTERNET FOR EVERYONE TO SEE!!!!! MY FINGERS WERE ITCHING TO TYPE OUT "FUCK YOU, SUCK MY DICK YOU PUSSY ASS BITCH!!!" But I restrained myself and had a lot more class than the did.
Instead I got subliminal with my status and decided to give my friend a condom to deliver to to the boy that was angry that I took all of his. He is one of those people that people warn you about but u still talk to them and then ater awhile, realize that the warning should have been aken serously on your part.
THen this morning I had to deal with this bullshit about how I am getting home for my break. I was supposed to be traveling back to NY with three friends but because they are so unorganized and unscheduled I ended up bailing on them and I am now traveling home by myself. I can't stand things that are unscheduled or unplanned or last minute. I truly HATE it. Things like that are only fun or cool in certain situations. when it comes to traveling though, I need a plan. It HAS to be a plan. No ifs, ands or buts. I'm sorry but thats just how I am. I need some type of structure. To me, when there is no plan, thats when things get messy and out of control.
I have a headache now. I just want to pistol whip everyone. I'm on the edge. People rarely see this side of me and I hope the full extent of my frustration and etc does not expose itself because I will loose A LOT of friends. But many people take my calm, mellow, sweet attitude asweak when that is not the case at all. I may be a sweet girl but when I'm a bitch, I am a BITCH. That is fair warning to tjose that try to test me. Please do not mak eme call you out because I will looooooove to air things out.
On a happier note though, Tye texted me and made me feel a little better this morning. He's a sweetheart and I hope I get to hang with him over the break.
Anywho, I'm going to end this ranting and say adios. I'll try to write over the break if something worth writing about comes up. I think I'll call Stephie now and vent. Ughhhh.
~Noelle
Friday, March 20, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Shiver
A gentle touch on the small of my back,
makes me shiver
I'm not cold
No. Your body heat is making sure of that.
Fingers trace around my waist
and hips...
and I bite my lip...
and I close my eyes...
and I sigh.
I shiver again and move closer
I want to be closer.
So close that I feel your nature rise
Pressure on my thigh.
Oh! My! God!
I raise my face to your's and inhale;
breathing in the sweetest sin; the passion
and tasting the lust.
A gentle brush of your lips on mine with legs intertwined.
Hands here...
and there...
and everywhere...
playing in my hair as you stare me down.
I allow it.
I want it.
I recieve it.
I need it!
A gentle kiss on the small of my back,
makes me shiver.
Helloooooo!!!!!! That was just a little something I was inspired to write. I hope you all enjoyed it.
Last week I wrote an epic post on what has been goin on with me in the past few weeks. BUT!!! Due to technical difficulties on this website, it was lost and i refused to retype things that I was just spiling my guts about all over again.
But here is a short recap:
My birthday was March 3rd!!!!
So called friends at school blew it off
I went home that weekend and had a blast
I find out that a guy I like and one of my friends are fooling around
Needless to say it wasn't the best week. HOWEVER, this wekend TOTALLY made up for it!!!!!! Why? Because I went home again and I celebrated with my best friends the fact that the baby of our group is now sixteen!!! Yaaaaaay!!!!!!! I had sooo much fun! I always do with them. They are like my second family. I'm not even going to call them best friends. From now on when i refer to them, they will be cousins. Basia, Shan, Britt, Domo, Tulani and Kira. We've been friends for 16 years!
Anywho lets recap the weekend that just passed.
Friday afternoon, I arrived back in NY and just hung out with my grandpa at my grandparents' house. Saturday was the party so I had made a hair appointment for that morning. I ended up getting a new hair cut and a little color in my bangs. Its different but I felt that I needed a change and I like it.
At the actual party, my goodness did Basia look AMAZING! I wanted to cry! I almost did! A d the rest of the girls looked great too! everyone was beautiful and smling and it was just a great environment to be in after feeling the way that I had been feeling. The party was so much fun! Afterwards we took a limo into the city and thats when the not so funny but still funny kind of things started to happen.
Basia's brothers, had given her some drinks. BAD IDEA! Basia hadn't eaten all night so that was mistake number 1. Mistake number two was that she chugged the drinks down really fast. So within minutes she was drunk. And when Basia is drunk, she's loud and obnoxius. It was funny at first but soon she started causing scenes in the middle of times squar, cursing at people from the limo and being rude. Eventually she threw up and passed out, allowing the rest of us to enjoy the view of the entire NYC skyline.
Basia's brothers had brought along a friend as well. His name is Tye. I first noticed Tye at the party and I thought he was very attractive but I did not think that he'd be interested. But throughout the whole night, in the limo, he and I had exchanged glances a few times. Not much conversation though.
When we got back to the hotel for the night, we encountered some prombles with management. Basically, they said there were too many of us and it was illegal and impossible to allow all of is to stay over night with the amount of rooms that Basia's mother had paid for. Therefore, some of us had to go home.
Tye, and Basia's brothers (Wayne and Armet) had attempted to carry Basia into the hotel without being caught by Basia's mother, but that plan failed once managment called her down to the front desk about the rooms. BUSTED!!!!! Kira and I decided to take a short walk to the nearest fast food place to get some air. The three guys had already gone over there and were getting food. In the restaurant, Tye and I had continued to exchange glances and I playfully argued with Armet about who's to blame about Basia's current condition. We walked back to the hotel and wehn I got to the room where everyone was staying in, Shan had recieved a text message from Wayne asking if she and I could come upstairs to their room to hang out and that Tye had specificaly asked for me.
Needless to say I was toooooo excited!! But just as I got excited, I was told that I wa sone of the people that had to go home because of the room situation. Thinking on my feet I quickly said that we can just lie to the management, tell them that I am staying in a room with only three other people in it and this way I can still stay the night. The plan worked. I was supposed ot be staying with Tye, Wayne and Armet as far as the hotel was concerned. It was about 3:00 AM and we were abou to hang out with them anyway so I wasn't really lying anyway.
Shan and I got ready to go upstairs to hang ou with the guys but I ended up going up alone because she had gotten side tracked by visiting other rooms. Hanging with the guys was fun but Wayne and Armet couldn't help themselves from joking about the sleeping arrangements and how they would take the floor and chairs and Tye and I would get the king sized bed.
Tye and I ened up in the room alone for a few minutes because the other two left to get juice....or so they said. We didn't do anything though. Just talked a little bit. Then it was time for bed so we all settled into our designanted spots. I wont get into many details of it but Tye is a smooth guy and I foun dmyself spooning with him under the sheets. It as comfortable. He plyed in my hair as I played in his curls as well.
I won't give you the total play by play. Thats just for me to relive in my own mind but to be honest, Tye and I ended up having sex. Yes with Wayne and Armet asleep in the room with us. We were quiet. Haha. But the best part wasn't the actual sex, even though it was pretty good considering the space and enviromen we had to work with. The best part was after, when he pulled me into him and held me all night. and gently placed kisses on my forehead and hand and made me feel so comfortable. I think that if he had just simply rolled over onhis side afterwards, I would have just felt like trash. But if I wasn't in my right mind, I would have sworn he was my boyfriend. It was just very sweet. And later on when I had to get up and get ready to leave to come back to school, he did the cutest thing. He playfully bit me on my arm and hid under the sheets. It was so corney yet so cute all at once.
I know he told Wayne and Armet what happened, as if they didn't already know. But I don't mind. I'm startin to not care so much about other's opinions. I mean I do care to some extent because an image is something that can make you or break you but with them, I'm comfortable enough to know that some things are just things you know happened but don't talk about.
Anywhooooo. Thats all for now. This site is about to do to me what it has done to me before when I tried o post something and I REFUSE to go through it again!
So ta-ta for now my dears!
xoxo
~Noelle
makes me shiver
I'm not cold
No. Your body heat is making sure of that.
Fingers trace around my waist
and hips...
and I bite my lip...
and I close my eyes...
and I sigh.
I shiver again and move closer
I want to be closer.
So close that I feel your nature rise
Pressure on my thigh.
Oh! My! God!
I raise my face to your's and inhale;
breathing in the sweetest sin; the passion
and tasting the lust.
A gentle brush of your lips on mine with legs intertwined.
Hands here...
and there...
and everywhere...
playing in my hair as you stare me down.
I allow it.
I want it.
I recieve it.
I need it!
A gentle kiss on the small of my back,
makes me shiver.
Helloooooo!!!!!! That was just a little something I was inspired to write. I hope you all enjoyed it.
Last week I wrote an epic post on what has been goin on with me in the past few weeks. BUT!!! Due to technical difficulties on this website, it was lost and i refused to retype things that I was just spiling my guts about all over again.
But here is a short recap:
My birthday was March 3rd!!!!
So called friends at school blew it off
I went home that weekend and had a blast
I find out that a guy I like and one of my friends are fooling around
Needless to say it wasn't the best week. HOWEVER, this wekend TOTALLY made up for it!!!!!! Why? Because I went home again and I celebrated with my best friends the fact that the baby of our group is now sixteen!!! Yaaaaaay!!!!!!! I had sooo much fun! I always do with them. They are like my second family. I'm not even going to call them best friends. From now on when i refer to them, they will be cousins. Basia, Shan, Britt, Domo, Tulani and Kira. We've been friends for 16 years!
Anywho lets recap the weekend that just passed.
Friday afternoon, I arrived back in NY and just hung out with my grandpa at my grandparents' house. Saturday was the party so I had made a hair appointment for that morning. I ended up getting a new hair cut and a little color in my bangs. Its different but I felt that I needed a change and I like it.
At the actual party, my goodness did Basia look AMAZING! I wanted to cry! I almost did! A d the rest of the girls looked great too! everyone was beautiful and smling and it was just a great environment to be in after feeling the way that I had been feeling. The party was so much fun! Afterwards we took a limo into the city and thats when the not so funny but still funny kind of things started to happen.
Basia's brothers, had given her some drinks. BAD IDEA! Basia hadn't eaten all night so that was mistake number 1. Mistake number two was that she chugged the drinks down really fast. So within minutes she was drunk. And when Basia is drunk, she's loud and obnoxius. It was funny at first but soon she started causing scenes in the middle of times squar, cursing at people from the limo and being rude. Eventually she threw up and passed out, allowing the rest of us to enjoy the view of the entire NYC skyline.
Basia's brothers had brought along a friend as well. His name is Tye. I first noticed Tye at the party and I thought he was very attractive but I did not think that he'd be interested. But throughout the whole night, in the limo, he and I had exchanged glances a few times. Not much conversation though.
When we got back to the hotel for the night, we encountered some prombles with management. Basically, they said there were too many of us and it was illegal and impossible to allow all of is to stay over night with the amount of rooms that Basia's mother had paid for. Therefore, some of us had to go home.
Tye, and Basia's brothers (Wayne and Armet) had attempted to carry Basia into the hotel without being caught by Basia's mother, but that plan failed once managment called her down to the front desk about the rooms. BUSTED!!!!! Kira and I decided to take a short walk to the nearest fast food place to get some air. The three guys had already gone over there and were getting food. In the restaurant, Tye and I had continued to exchange glances and I playfully argued with Armet about who's to blame about Basia's current condition. We walked back to the hotel and wehn I got to the room where everyone was staying in, Shan had recieved a text message from Wayne asking if she and I could come upstairs to their room to hang out and that Tye had specificaly asked for me.
Needless to say I was toooooo excited!! But just as I got excited, I was told that I wa sone of the people that had to go home because of the room situation. Thinking on my feet I quickly said that we can just lie to the management, tell them that I am staying in a room with only three other people in it and this way I can still stay the night. The plan worked. I was supposed ot be staying with Tye, Wayne and Armet as far as the hotel was concerned. It was about 3:00 AM and we were abou to hang out with them anyway so I wasn't really lying anyway.
Shan and I got ready to go upstairs to hang ou with the guys but I ended up going up alone because she had gotten side tracked by visiting other rooms. Hanging with the guys was fun but Wayne and Armet couldn't help themselves from joking about the sleeping arrangements and how they would take the floor and chairs and Tye and I would get the king sized bed.
Tye and I ened up in the room alone for a few minutes because the other two left to get juice....or so they said. We didn't do anything though. Just talked a little bit. Then it was time for bed so we all settled into our designanted spots. I wont get into many details of it but Tye is a smooth guy and I foun dmyself spooning with him under the sheets. It as comfortable. He plyed in my hair as I played in his curls as well.
I won't give you the total play by play. Thats just for me to relive in my own mind but to be honest, Tye and I ended up having sex. Yes with Wayne and Armet asleep in the room with us. We were quiet. Haha. But the best part wasn't the actual sex, even though it was pretty good considering the space and enviromen we had to work with. The best part was after, when he pulled me into him and held me all night. and gently placed kisses on my forehead and hand and made me feel so comfortable. I think that if he had just simply rolled over onhis side afterwards, I would have just felt like trash. But if I wasn't in my right mind, I would have sworn he was my boyfriend. It was just very sweet. And later on when I had to get up and get ready to leave to come back to school, he did the cutest thing. He playfully bit me on my arm and hid under the sheets. It was so corney yet so cute all at once.
I know he told Wayne and Armet what happened, as if they didn't already know. But I don't mind. I'm startin to not care so much about other's opinions. I mean I do care to some extent because an image is something that can make you or break you but with them, I'm comfortable enough to know that some things are just things you know happened but don't talk about.
Anywhooooo. Thats all for now. This site is about to do to me what it has done to me before when I tried o post something and I REFUSE to go through it again!
So ta-ta for now my dears!
xoxo
~Noelle
Thursday, March 5, 2009
wow
so i just wrote this epic post about whats been going on and tried to save and post it but it didn't work. and I don't feel like re doing it because i mean really, i write from th eheart and it just comes i don't prewrite...so its gone. and i'm sry but i refuse to re do it. maybe later but as of now i'm upset. the end.
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