Sunday, September 27, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Relapse
I thought about Drew today...
I havent seen him or spoken to him since a week before i left NY at the beginning of the school year.
When I thought about him today, it wasn't on a romantuc level. More like a feeling like something wasn't right. Like something is wrong. I've grown to be very protective of him even when its him thats cause himself harm.
Drew has changed since we were together 3 years ago. I won't blame his current girlfriend, however since they got together, he has picked up a few habits that I do not approve of and that I know just are not him. Or maybe it is him and I just didn't see it at the time.
All I know is, that when drew is hurt, no matter where I am or what I'm doing, I know because I sort of feel it too. Its strange. To have that connection wit a person where their pain is your pain.
I hope he's alright. Its been harder and harder to get in touch with him over time. Maybe I'll call him later. *sigh*
I havent seen him or spoken to him since a week before i left NY at the beginning of the school year.
When I thought about him today, it wasn't on a romantuc level. More like a feeling like something wasn't right. Like something is wrong. I've grown to be very protective of him even when its him thats cause himself harm.
Drew has changed since we were together 3 years ago. I won't blame his current girlfriend, however since they got together, he has picked up a few habits that I do not approve of and that I know just are not him. Or maybe it is him and I just didn't see it at the time.
All I know is, that when drew is hurt, no matter where I am or what I'm doing, I know because I sort of feel it too. Its strange. To have that connection wit a person where their pain is your pain.
I hope he's alright. Its been harder and harder to get in touch with him over time. Maybe I'll call him later. *sigh*
Friday, September 18, 2009
Bxtch.Boo.Bye
So I've been feeling a lot of negative energy coming from some people in my circle. So this morning I woke up and watched a few videos by none other than the IMFAMOUS B. Scott on youtube. They helped me feel a whole lot better.
I ADORE B. SCOTT! Don't let the fact that he is a gay man distract you from the messages that he is trying to send. Be a positive person and let all the negative energy and false friendships go. They will only bring you down...
Well that's all for now. Its Friday! Wooo! So I hope everyone enjoys his or her weekend. In the words of B. Scott,"DOUBLE KISSESSS!! *MUAH MUAH!* BUH-BYE!" =o)
~Noelle
I ADORE B. SCOTT! Don't let the fact that he is a gay man distract you from the messages that he is trying to send. Be a positive person and let all the negative energy and false friendships go. They will only bring you down...
Well that's all for now. Its Friday! Wooo! So I hope everyone enjoys his or her weekend. In the words of B. Scott,"DOUBLE KISSESSS!! *MUAH MUAH!* BUH-BYE!" =o)
~Noelle
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Do The Right Thing
Do the right thing
Thats what I was taught to do
But what happens when doing the right thing
Causes you to lose?
Not just a few let downs
But a timeline of countless losses
and you want to finally be happy
are you willing to pay what the cost is?
To be so close, but not quite
Its a discouraging situation
and they say every dog has his day
But I'm tired of being patient
Waiting for my chance
Seeing that everyone else is fine
It gets to be heart wrentching
and the hole inside grows with time
Do the right thing
That's what I was taught to do
But when I DO do the right thing
How come I always lose?
Thats what I was taught to do
But what happens when doing the right thing
Causes you to lose?
Not just a few let downs
But a timeline of countless losses
and you want to finally be happy
are you willing to pay what the cost is?
To be so close, but not quite
Its a discouraging situation
and they say every dog has his day
But I'm tired of being patient
Waiting for my chance
Seeing that everyone else is fine
It gets to be heart wrentching
and the hole inside grows with time
Do the right thing
That's what I was taught to do
But when I DO do the right thing
How come I always lose?
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Rumor Me This
Salutations and greetings =o)
Its a lovely Sunday morning and I'm here at my friends' apartment just lounging around, being silly. Its days like this that I am thankful far. Lets just all take a moment to acknowledge our friends and family and the time we spend with them.............
Okay moment over!
On to the topic of today's post: the rumor mill....
This weekend I was thrown under the bus by a person that I considered to be my friend. This person told a friend of mine that I was apart of a scheme to basically defile her image and name on campus. I will not go into details about what the plot was and what was said exactly. However the point is, again I have learned the hard way that not everyone is your friend and can be trusted.
Ironically enough, this friend that betrayed me does not like my friend that she spoke to. My friend had warned me about the rat but I defended her and continued to hang out with her and tell her things. Come to find out she tells her other friends about things that I told her. And she also adds to stories and twists them and transforms them into things that are so farfetched you would think you were watching a movie.
Why do we likr to bring eachother down? What pleasure to we get from seeing others that we are supposed to be supportive of, fail? And why is it that most times, its us girls that do it. I will admit that I participate in a little gossip from time to time but I'm not saying it is right.
Its human nature I guess. But its unfortunate.
As for the girl that I mistakenly trust, SHE CAN EAT A WHOLE DXCK!!!!! =o) And I'd like to say that I love all my friends!
Well thats all for now....we're making grilled cheese sandwiches...YUMMAAAAY!!!!
STAY CLASSY, READERS ;o)
~Noelle
Its a lovely Sunday morning and I'm here at my friends' apartment just lounging around, being silly. Its days like this that I am thankful far. Lets just all take a moment to acknowledge our friends and family and the time we spend with them.............
Okay moment over!
On to the topic of today's post: the rumor mill....
This weekend I was thrown under the bus by a person that I considered to be my friend. This person told a friend of mine that I was apart of a scheme to basically defile her image and name on campus. I will not go into details about what the plot was and what was said exactly. However the point is, again I have learned the hard way that not everyone is your friend and can be trusted.
Ironically enough, this friend that betrayed me does not like my friend that she spoke to. My friend had warned me about the rat but I defended her and continued to hang out with her and tell her things. Come to find out she tells her other friends about things that I told her. And she also adds to stories and twists them and transforms them into things that are so farfetched you would think you were watching a movie.
Why do we likr to bring eachother down? What pleasure to we get from seeing others that we are supposed to be supportive of, fail? And why is it that most times, its us girls that do it. I will admit that I participate in a little gossip from time to time but I'm not saying it is right.
Its human nature I guess. But its unfortunate.
As for the girl that I mistakenly trust, SHE CAN EAT A WHOLE DXCK!!!!! =o) And I'd like to say that I love all my friends!
Well thats all for now....we're making grilled cheese sandwiches...YUMMAAAAY!!!!
STAY CLASSY, READERS ;o)
~Noelle
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Lets Do This Right
Ah yes. I'm slowly but surely becoming more consistant with my blogging. Aren't you all proud of me? =oD
So, I've been put in the ARISE program at my school. This is for students that have a cumulative GPA lower than 2.0. My GPA is currently a 1.8. I'd like to thank my french class that I took this summer for that (bitter face). HOWEVER! I will not say that I did not slack off. I have been slacking. IMMENSELY slacking.
Its a shame that I only start to work hard when I'm about to lose something. This time, my finacial aid and housing assignment are in jeapordy. They both require a minimum of 2.0. Therefore I have to get a 3.0 for the semester in order to bring my cumulative GPA up to at least a 2.3 so that my finacial aid is not dropped nor my housing.
And as I sat in the room, listening to all the requirments of the program, I came to a conclusion. Take this opportunity to improve not only my GPA, but my self as a person in general! This includes my grades, how I spend my money, and my physical, mental and emotional health. An all around make-over.
I fgure I've already started with one change once I cut my hair. But this goes deeper into that. This is about Noelle as a whole person.
I've been complaining about being single so much when in reality, I know why I am. I know the mistakes that I keep repeating over and over again. So I have to stop it. I have to change it. I also know that I have to do better in school and stop being so lazy. I know that I'm not totally happy with the way my body is but once again, I am too lazy to work out or eat properly.
I also have to try and have a better relationship with my family. Call home more. See how my grandparents are. Stop getting wrapped up in the non-sense and get FOCUSED o.O! I'M GOING TO BE 20 YEARS OLD SOON! I want to be treated as an adult, it's time that I start behaving like one.
So if I am going to do this, I have to do it RIGHT. Starting Tuesday (I say Tuesday because it is now Thursday and Labor Day weekend is this weekend) I am on the road to change. People have to change in order to learn and grow. If everyone stayed the same, where would we be? NO WHERE! So its a positive change.
Wish me luck!
I'm wrapping this up because I have gym in less than an hour...maybe after I'll come back to my room and STUDY! =o) I really hope I can stay motivated. Feel free to lend me some supportive words and all. I'd do it for you!
~Noelle
So, I've been put in the ARISE program at my school. This is for students that have a cumulative GPA lower than 2.0. My GPA is currently a 1.8. I'd like to thank my french class that I took this summer for that (bitter face). HOWEVER! I will not say that I did not slack off. I have been slacking. IMMENSELY slacking.
Its a shame that I only start to work hard when I'm about to lose something. This time, my finacial aid and housing assignment are in jeapordy. They both require a minimum of 2.0. Therefore I have to get a 3.0 for the semester in order to bring my cumulative GPA up to at least a 2.3 so that my finacial aid is not dropped nor my housing.
And as I sat in the room, listening to all the requirments of the program, I came to a conclusion. Take this opportunity to improve not only my GPA, but my self as a person in general! This includes my grades, how I spend my money, and my physical, mental and emotional health. An all around make-over.
I fgure I've already started with one change once I cut my hair. But this goes deeper into that. This is about Noelle as a whole person.
I've been complaining about being single so much when in reality, I know why I am. I know the mistakes that I keep repeating over and over again. So I have to stop it. I have to change it. I also know that I have to do better in school and stop being so lazy. I know that I'm not totally happy with the way my body is but once again, I am too lazy to work out or eat properly.
I also have to try and have a better relationship with my family. Call home more. See how my grandparents are. Stop getting wrapped up in the non-sense and get FOCUSED o.O! I'M GOING TO BE 20 YEARS OLD SOON! I want to be treated as an adult, it's time that I start behaving like one.
So if I am going to do this, I have to do it RIGHT. Starting Tuesday (I say Tuesday because it is now Thursday and Labor Day weekend is this weekend) I am on the road to change. People have to change in order to learn and grow. If everyone stayed the same, where would we be? NO WHERE! So its a positive change.
Wish me luck!
I'm wrapping this up because I have gym in less than an hour...maybe after I'll come back to my room and STUDY! =o) I really hope I can stay motivated. Feel free to lend me some supportive words and all. I'd do it for you!
~Noelle
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