Do the right thing
Thats what I was taught to do
But what happens when doing the right thing
Causes you to lose?
Not just a few let downs
But a timeline of countless losses
and you want to finally be happy
are you willing to pay what the cost is?
To be so close, but not quite
Its a discouraging situation
and they say every dog has his day
But I'm tired of being patient
Waiting for my chance
Seeing that everyone else is fine
It gets to be heart wrentching
and the hole inside grows with time
Do the right thing
That's what I was taught to do
But when I DO do the right thing
How come I always lose?
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Rumor Me This
Salutations and greetings =o)
Its a lovely Sunday morning and I'm here at my friends' apartment just lounging around, being silly. Its days like this that I am thankful far. Lets just all take a moment to acknowledge our friends and family and the time we spend with them.............
Okay moment over!
On to the topic of today's post: the rumor mill....
This weekend I was thrown under the bus by a person that I considered to be my friend. This person told a friend of mine that I was apart of a scheme to basically defile her image and name on campus. I will not go into details about what the plot was and what was said exactly. However the point is, again I have learned the hard way that not everyone is your friend and can be trusted.
Ironically enough, this friend that betrayed me does not like my friend that she spoke to. My friend had warned me about the rat but I defended her and continued to hang out with her and tell her things. Come to find out she tells her other friends about things that I told her. And she also adds to stories and twists them and transforms them into things that are so farfetched you would think you were watching a movie.
Why do we likr to bring eachother down? What pleasure to we get from seeing others that we are supposed to be supportive of, fail? And why is it that most times, its us girls that do it. I will admit that I participate in a little gossip from time to time but I'm not saying it is right.
Its human nature I guess. But its unfortunate.
As for the girl that I mistakenly trust, SHE CAN EAT A WHOLE DXCK!!!!! =o) And I'd like to say that I love all my friends!
Well thats all for now....we're making grilled cheese sandwiches...YUMMAAAAY!!!!
STAY CLASSY, READERS ;o)
~Noelle
Its a lovely Sunday morning and I'm here at my friends' apartment just lounging around, being silly. Its days like this that I am thankful far. Lets just all take a moment to acknowledge our friends and family and the time we spend with them.............
Okay moment over!
On to the topic of today's post: the rumor mill....
This weekend I was thrown under the bus by a person that I considered to be my friend. This person told a friend of mine that I was apart of a scheme to basically defile her image and name on campus. I will not go into details about what the plot was and what was said exactly. However the point is, again I have learned the hard way that not everyone is your friend and can be trusted.
Ironically enough, this friend that betrayed me does not like my friend that she spoke to. My friend had warned me about the rat but I defended her and continued to hang out with her and tell her things. Come to find out she tells her other friends about things that I told her. And she also adds to stories and twists them and transforms them into things that are so farfetched you would think you were watching a movie.
Why do we likr to bring eachother down? What pleasure to we get from seeing others that we are supposed to be supportive of, fail? And why is it that most times, its us girls that do it. I will admit that I participate in a little gossip from time to time but I'm not saying it is right.
Its human nature I guess. But its unfortunate.
As for the girl that I mistakenly trust, SHE CAN EAT A WHOLE DXCK!!!!! =o) And I'd like to say that I love all my friends!
Well thats all for now....we're making grilled cheese sandwiches...YUMMAAAAY!!!!
STAY CLASSY, READERS ;o)
~Noelle
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Lets Do This Right
Ah yes. I'm slowly but surely becoming more consistant with my blogging. Aren't you all proud of me? =oD
So, I've been put in the ARISE program at my school. This is for students that have a cumulative GPA lower than 2.0. My GPA is currently a 1.8. I'd like to thank my french class that I took this summer for that (bitter face). HOWEVER! I will not say that I did not slack off. I have been slacking. IMMENSELY slacking.
Its a shame that I only start to work hard when I'm about to lose something. This time, my finacial aid and housing assignment are in jeapordy. They both require a minimum of 2.0. Therefore I have to get a 3.0 for the semester in order to bring my cumulative GPA up to at least a 2.3 so that my finacial aid is not dropped nor my housing.
And as I sat in the room, listening to all the requirments of the program, I came to a conclusion. Take this opportunity to improve not only my GPA, but my self as a person in general! This includes my grades, how I spend my money, and my physical, mental and emotional health. An all around make-over.
I fgure I've already started with one change once I cut my hair. But this goes deeper into that. This is about Noelle as a whole person.
I've been complaining about being single so much when in reality, I know why I am. I know the mistakes that I keep repeating over and over again. So I have to stop it. I have to change it. I also know that I have to do better in school and stop being so lazy. I know that I'm not totally happy with the way my body is but once again, I am too lazy to work out or eat properly.
I also have to try and have a better relationship with my family. Call home more. See how my grandparents are. Stop getting wrapped up in the non-sense and get FOCUSED o.O! I'M GOING TO BE 20 YEARS OLD SOON! I want to be treated as an adult, it's time that I start behaving like one.
So if I am going to do this, I have to do it RIGHT. Starting Tuesday (I say Tuesday because it is now Thursday and Labor Day weekend is this weekend) I am on the road to change. People have to change in order to learn and grow. If everyone stayed the same, where would we be? NO WHERE! So its a positive change.
Wish me luck!
I'm wrapping this up because I have gym in less than an hour...maybe after I'll come back to my room and STUDY! =o) I really hope I can stay motivated. Feel free to lend me some supportive words and all. I'd do it for you!
~Noelle
So, I've been put in the ARISE program at my school. This is for students that have a cumulative GPA lower than 2.0. My GPA is currently a 1.8. I'd like to thank my french class that I took this summer for that (bitter face). HOWEVER! I will not say that I did not slack off. I have been slacking. IMMENSELY slacking.
Its a shame that I only start to work hard when I'm about to lose something. This time, my finacial aid and housing assignment are in jeapordy. They both require a minimum of 2.0. Therefore I have to get a 3.0 for the semester in order to bring my cumulative GPA up to at least a 2.3 so that my finacial aid is not dropped nor my housing.
And as I sat in the room, listening to all the requirments of the program, I came to a conclusion. Take this opportunity to improve not only my GPA, but my self as a person in general! This includes my grades, how I spend my money, and my physical, mental and emotional health. An all around make-over.
I fgure I've already started with one change once I cut my hair. But this goes deeper into that. This is about Noelle as a whole person.
I've been complaining about being single so much when in reality, I know why I am. I know the mistakes that I keep repeating over and over again. So I have to stop it. I have to change it. I also know that I have to do better in school and stop being so lazy. I know that I'm not totally happy with the way my body is but once again, I am too lazy to work out or eat properly.
I also have to try and have a better relationship with my family. Call home more. See how my grandparents are. Stop getting wrapped up in the non-sense and get FOCUSED o.O! I'M GOING TO BE 20 YEARS OLD SOON! I want to be treated as an adult, it's time that I start behaving like one.
So if I am going to do this, I have to do it RIGHT. Starting Tuesday (I say Tuesday because it is now Thursday and Labor Day weekend is this weekend) I am on the road to change. People have to change in order to learn and grow. If everyone stayed the same, where would we be? NO WHERE! So its a positive change.
Wish me luck!
I'm wrapping this up because I have gym in less than an hour...maybe after I'll come back to my room and STUDY! =o) I really hope I can stay motivated. Feel free to lend me some supportive words and all. I'd do it for you!
~Noelle
Sunday, August 30, 2009
HOE NOOOOO
wow! I'm back AGAIN for the SECOND time today! =D Twitter has given me another topic of discussion.
heeeerrrreeeee we go:
HOES!
What makes someone a hoe, stragg, pop, jump, etc.?
Everyone has their own definition of what makes you a hoe.
To some, a hoe is someone who has slept with a lot of different people. If thats the case, than how many is too many? is 3 too many? 7? 10?
Others think that its the time inbetween meeting and actually having relations. If this is so, then how soon is too soon? 3 weeks? a month? 5 months?
Or if a hoe is only a hoe because of what she or he did? Does sucking dxck make you a hoe? Sleeping with another person's boyfriend or girlfriend? Having sex with friends that are in the same circle? Taking risque photo's of yourself?
And lets not forget the age old, double standard! How men can get away with certain behaviors while women are looked down upon if they ever even THOUGHT about it.
Well these questions and opinions have been around long before I have and will continue to grow and change with time. Everyone has his or her's dos and don'ts.
Personally, I am a sexual person. To be blunt, I LIKE SEX. I enjoy it. I like actual intercoarse. I enjoy giving as well as recieveing oral pleasures aka HEAD. I've had sex in public. I've had a one night stand. I've had sex with a guy that was not my boyfriend. I've had sex with a guy who was someone else's boyfriend. I'm curious about sex. I want to eventually try new things with my partner. But I too have the Dos and Don'ts rules.
I feel that it is a matter of a person's comfortablity with themselves as well as with others. Its also a respect thing; both self as well as for others. Granted, some of the things I have done were not lady-like and may be seen as whore-ish to some. However I know my own limitations and I feel that the mistakes I have made, I learned from. I'm young and still have a lot of growing up to do. I do not claim to know it all and I'm not trying to seem as though I do. However I do feel that when labels are distributed, they should be under more defined guidelines as to what makes a person fit into that label. If everyone has a different defination, who is to say what a hoe truly is? The lines are blurred.
We are so quick to point out the flaws in others when in some cases, we know we wish we could do what it is that that person does. If I were a guy, everything that I've done would be seen as cool. But because I have a vagina, some people would say I have hoe-ish tendancies (a friend actually told me that I have hoe-ish tendancies before =\)
Not to say that I haven't called or labeled others under this term. I have. Everyone has. Its human nature. Noone is capable of not passing judgment onto others. We judge all the time. However, after the initial judgmnet, we should stop to really think about why the person is the way they are. Or if we would do it, too, but for whatever reason, can't.
I'm not naive either. I'm aware that there are somethings that are just not acceptable in society and as much as I like to say that I do not care what others think or feel, I know tha I have to. Because if a person of importance was to come across a sex tape of me back in college (all hypothetical...no tapes here) my chances of getting a job with that company r slim to none. Its all an image. In a perfect world, it would not matter but unfortunatly, it does.
But the question still remains, what is a hoe? Leave comments and opinions. I'd like to know.
Tats all for now. twitter me baby =) (@Only_Noniie)
~Noelle
heeeerrrreeeee we go:
HOES!
What makes someone a hoe, stragg, pop, jump, etc.?
Everyone has their own definition of what makes you a hoe.
To some, a hoe is someone who has slept with a lot of different people. If thats the case, than how many is too many? is 3 too many? 7? 10?
Others think that its the time inbetween meeting and actually having relations. If this is so, then how soon is too soon? 3 weeks? a month? 5 months?
Or if a hoe is only a hoe because of what she or he did? Does sucking dxck make you a hoe? Sleeping with another person's boyfriend or girlfriend? Having sex with friends that are in the same circle? Taking risque photo's of yourself?
And lets not forget the age old, double standard! How men can get away with certain behaviors while women are looked down upon if they ever even THOUGHT about it.
Well these questions and opinions have been around long before I have and will continue to grow and change with time. Everyone has his or her's dos and don'ts.
Personally, I am a sexual person. To be blunt, I LIKE SEX. I enjoy it. I like actual intercoarse. I enjoy giving as well as recieveing oral pleasures aka HEAD. I've had sex in public. I've had a one night stand. I've had sex with a guy that was not my boyfriend. I've had sex with a guy who was someone else's boyfriend. I'm curious about sex. I want to eventually try new things with my partner. But I too have the Dos and Don'ts rules.
I feel that it is a matter of a person's comfortablity with themselves as well as with others. Its also a respect thing; both self as well as for others. Granted, some of the things I have done were not lady-like and may be seen as whore-ish to some. However I know my own limitations and I feel that the mistakes I have made, I learned from. I'm young and still have a lot of growing up to do. I do not claim to know it all and I'm not trying to seem as though I do. However I do feel that when labels are distributed, they should be under more defined guidelines as to what makes a person fit into that label. If everyone has a different defination, who is to say what a hoe truly is? The lines are blurred.
We are so quick to point out the flaws in others when in some cases, we know we wish we could do what it is that that person does. If I were a guy, everything that I've done would be seen as cool. But because I have a vagina, some people would say I have hoe-ish tendancies (a friend actually told me that I have hoe-ish tendancies before =\)
Not to say that I haven't called or labeled others under this term. I have. Everyone has. Its human nature. Noone is capable of not passing judgment onto others. We judge all the time. However, after the initial judgmnet, we should stop to really think about why the person is the way they are. Or if we would do it, too, but for whatever reason, can't.
I'm not naive either. I'm aware that there are somethings that are just not acceptable in society and as much as I like to say that I do not care what others think or feel, I know tha I have to. Because if a person of importance was to come across a sex tape of me back in college (all hypothetical...no tapes here) my chances of getting a job with that company r slim to none. Its all an image. In a perfect world, it would not matter but unfortunatly, it does.
But the question still remains, what is a hoe? Leave comments and opinions. I'd like to know.
Tats all for now. twitter me baby =) (@Only_Noniie)
~Noelle
Phony Noniie ????
i'm back.
yess yess YESSSS!
I'm sorry I have been neglectful =\ But I always com back, don't I????
The 1st week of my sophomore year is complete! =D *happy dance* This only means that it is officially time to work! I really fxcked up my freshman year so I have A LOT of work to do to resurrect my GPA.
Anywhooo I will begin this post with a recap of my 1st week at school:
I did not get the housing assignment i was hoping for. Instead I am back in my old dormatory. However I will not complain because many people are stuck without housing period. So for this, I am thankful. Besides, my friends have off campus apartments that I am frequently at so I look at my room in the dorm as a vacation spot.
The first party of the year was on Tuesday night. Yes a Tuesday. I know it wasnt such a good idea but of coarse I was in attendance. And I'm glad that I was. I got to meet Terrance J from 106 & Park and he is a very cool guy. Most people think he is corny but hes actually funny and down to earth. I won't get into much detail online about it, however my friends and I can now say we are cool with people in the buisness. BUT FOR THE RECORD THERE WAS NO GROUPIE ACTIVITY!!!!!! NO SEX OR LIQOUR OR NUDITY OR ANYTHING OF THAT NATURE!
As for the new guys on campus. . . . .
I haven't gotten one. Typical. As usual, anyone I had my eye on, was already claimed by a friend *shrug* =\ Welcome to my life. But I guess this only allows me to concetrate more on my school work, right?
Now on to th topic of this post>>>>>
Phony Noniie? This is the question that I am proposing.
It all started when I was showing pictures to my friend, Rell. He spotted a picture of me with a female friend and asked me if it was the same girl that I had once told him was a whore. I laughed and said yes. He told me that I was being phony. I explained that I don't see it as being phony. She and I get along most times. I don't hate the girl. There are times when I see myself in situations that reind me of the movie Mean Girls. But in a group of girls I find this to be common. Frenemies is the term. You deal with them but there are some times that just make you want to smack them. But I can say that I've never done anything to her that harmed her in anyway. Okay yes I said she's a whore. But she can have whorish moments, as do I and a lot of girls. We never say things behind eachother's backs that we havent said to eachother's faces. Rell still insists that I'm being a phony, where as I see it as being socially aware.
So my question to you, readers, is this: Am I being phony for hanging out with her?
Leave comments and let me know what you think about the situation and how you would handle it. I honestly feel like I am a genuine person and phony is not a synonym with my name. But if you see different, let me know.
Anywhoooo thats all for now. . . . .find me daily on twitter (@Only_Noniie)
~Noelle
yess yess YESSSS!
I'm sorry I have been neglectful =\ But I always com back, don't I????
The 1st week of my sophomore year is complete! =D *happy dance* This only means that it is officially time to work! I really fxcked up my freshman year so I have A LOT of work to do to resurrect my GPA.
Anywhooo I will begin this post with a recap of my 1st week at school:
I did not get the housing assignment i was hoping for. Instead I am back in my old dormatory. However I will not complain because many people are stuck without housing period. So for this, I am thankful. Besides, my friends have off campus apartments that I am frequently at so I look at my room in the dorm as a vacation spot.
The first party of the year was on Tuesday night. Yes a Tuesday. I know it wasnt such a good idea but of coarse I was in attendance. And I'm glad that I was. I got to meet Terrance J from 106 & Park and he is a very cool guy. Most people think he is corny but hes actually funny and down to earth. I won't get into much detail online about it, however my friends and I can now say we are cool with people in the buisness. BUT FOR THE RECORD THERE WAS NO GROUPIE ACTIVITY!!!!!! NO SEX OR LIQOUR OR NUDITY OR ANYTHING OF THAT NATURE!
As for the new guys on campus. . . . .
I haven't gotten one. Typical. As usual, anyone I had my eye on, was already claimed by a friend *shrug* =\ Welcome to my life. But I guess this only allows me to concetrate more on my school work, right?
Now on to th topic of this post>>>>>
Phony Noniie? This is the question that I am proposing.
It all started when I was showing pictures to my friend, Rell. He spotted a picture of me with a female friend and asked me if it was the same girl that I had once told him was a whore. I laughed and said yes. He told me that I was being phony. I explained that I don't see it as being phony. She and I get along most times. I don't hate the girl. There are times when I see myself in situations that reind me of the movie Mean Girls. But in a group of girls I find this to be common. Frenemies is the term. You deal with them but there are some times that just make you want to smack them. But I can say that I've never done anything to her that harmed her in anyway. Okay yes I said she's a whore. But she can have whorish moments, as do I and a lot of girls. We never say things behind eachother's backs that we havent said to eachother's faces. Rell still insists that I'm being a phony, where as I see it as being socially aware.
So my question to you, readers, is this: Am I being phony for hanging out with her?
Leave comments and let me know what you think about the situation and how you would handle it. I honestly feel like I am a genuine person and phony is not a synonym with my name. But if you see different, let me know.
Anywhoooo thats all for now. . . . .find me daily on twitter (@Only_Noniie)
~Noelle
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